Saturday, May 16, 2015

October 5

Tico has joined the family! 

Turns out October 5 is a very important day 

!!!!!

10/22/14

Went and had a "professional" pregnancy test done. Definitely pregnant. 15+ weeks along apparently. Due date of April 13. I have an appointment next Wednesday to start getting ultrasounds and the like. I can't wait! I want to hear it's little heartbeat and see it's little body. Yay. 


Baby B

Brooklyn Rose.
Born April 28, 2015 at 12:31 am.
5 lbs and 17 inches long.
Discharged from hospital May 1, 2015.
Weight was 4 lbs 10 oz.
Had to have a new car seat provided because peanut was too small for the one we had.
Had EKG done in hospital due to low resting heart rate.
First doctors appointment May 11, 2015.
5 lbs 2 oz and 18 inches long.

Epidural experience.
I truly feel like the epidural helped me relax enough that I was able to deliver my daughter within the hour after I had it. I had been induced 3 weeks early after I started seeing spots. My blood pressure was through the roof. So they put a Foley catheter in. Once that came out it was time for Pitocin. I was contracting for about 20 hours, each getting more painful than the last, I was on magnesium sulfate to keep my blood pressure from causing me to seize. I got to 4 cm and 50% effaced but not further than that in those 20 hours (I got to 4 relatively quickly, then stayed there) I finally decided I was going to get the epidural because I didn't know how much longer I could take the pain and let me tell you, I am glad I did. I was more scared of an epidural than the actual giving birth part but I just knew I had to do something. I was only able to have onE person in the room while they did it and it took about 10 minutes. It wasn't painful, there were a few, what's a good word, uncomfortable moments during it where you could feel what was being done but not like what I expected. My boyfriend was in the room with me for it and it was probably worse for him based on what he was telling me (he was able to see what she was doing, I didn't want him to tell me! lol) Once that was done (someone mentioned catheter, I already had one since they didn't want me getting up and down...blood pressure) I was able to relax. I could still feel the contractions but they were NOTHING compared to before. Within the hour I had progressed to 10cm and they could already see the babies head and I had no clue! They asked me about pressure and I was like hmmm maybe? Lol but I went into this not wanting to get an epidural but knowing that if I felt I needed to, I would do it. I tried to put it off as long as I could but in the end, I'm glad I did. Who knows how much the pain was affecting my blood pressure and once that was taken out of the equation things progressed very nicely.

I ended up pushing a total of 7 times, through 2 contractions and she was here! I remember she was placed on my belly while the cord was cut. Mike didn't want to do it, my mom didn't want to do it so Hillary did it. After that, she was taken away to be cleaned up. I remember more people rushing into the room, Mike being called over and he and my mom standing there together. I was trying to watch what was happening. It seemed a little abnormal. One woman kept rushing back as forth calling out the minutes. I heard them get up to 6. I was told it was taking a long time for her to breathe and that was concerning. Her apgar score was 1. So it was a little rough from the beginning but a week later, she is doing amazing! I ended up staying in the hospital from Sunday April 26 around 6 pm, until Friday May 1 until around noon. The 24 hours after I delivered, I had to stay on the magnesium sulfate and it was awful. Absolutely awful. I couldn't eat real food. I hadn't been able to eat real food for about 24 hours before that also so I was HUNGRY.

This is what I remember of that experience. I hope to write a much of it as I can remember. So that I'll always have it.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Life

What's to say?

Shit happens. You change and grow and move on and sometimes you're whole world is thrown upside down. 
My world has been CRAZY since March. 
You think you're going to end up living one kind of life, a life not really like what you envisioned or dreamed for and then BAM an ex boyfriend comes out of nowhere 15 years later and has you thinking all kinds of things that precipitated the hurricane storm that came to be. 
True story. 

I'll tell it all one day. Perhaps in that book I've longed to write. 

My goals have definitely changed. I want to travel. I want to see things not a lot of people get to see. I want to be happy. Not by having enough money to pay the bills but by actually doing things that make me happy. I want a love that isn't constantly a battle. I just want happiness. I just want honesty. I just want peace and quiet and for the people I love to be happy. I just want to be outside. I just want to meet new people. I just want to take pictures and document as much as I can. 

I want a lot. 

Let's see if I can make it happen.

Go me. 

Friday, March 7, 2014

Girls Gone Dead

What can I say. J and I came inside and the channel we had previously been watching had this movie on. So thinking it was going to be one of those cheesy premium cable "porn" movies. Some of them are quite entertaining in a funny kind of way. 

But this one. 

Takes. The. Cake. 

J and I laughed SO MUCH. 

I was so entertained by this movie because it was so over the top but then every once in a while, something would happen that had us both surprised. Like the end, the sheriff comes in and pile drives the killer and says "eat dirt, bitch!"

So many bad words that just came out of nowhere and interesting combinations of words. 

Did I mention, beetlejuice is in it? As in the African American little person from New Jersey. 

Side note: Jon just randomly said "shark week. Fu@$ yeah!"  It's not really too surprising as we watched Team America and also discussed shark week tonight. 

Back to the movie. 

So entertaining. 

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

More Downton excellence



"Im never excited" -daisy

"Is that American for hello?" -DCOG 

Monday, February 17, 2014

Random and funny.

This is how I get my husband to make a sandwhich for me: 

"The power of cleavage compels you" -Me

I am wearing a really low cut tank top. Not usually my style. 

I got my sandwhich. 


I've realized this is going to be a place for just random thoughts that I hopefully can compile someday or use in something I've written. The only way to get better is to practice, right? 

I love the little goats. 


Thursday, February 13, 2014

Snow day

I really tried to go I work today. It was just too scary. It looks really shitty out there and it's not worth it. So I'm making beer bread. 
Jealous? I'll let you know how jealous you should be in about 40 minutes. 

Brrr. It looks cold out there.